To be honest, I kinda miss the times before February. For one, everyone was where they were supposed to be; besties are all still around, brother still around, parents are overly available. I miss having someone to talk to. I miss having someone else to talk to when someone is not available. It's... ...lonely, now. I miss having someone there for me.
This absence of everyone really kinda messes with your head. 10 minutes ago I was scrolling down my phone list to find someone to randomly blab about my horrible horrible day but I ended up here to rant instead; never thought I would sink so low. I'm not angry, I'm not mad, and I'm not depressed; I'm just very slightly annoyed, honestly.
So my horrible day starts with me waking up at normal time - I wanted to wake up earlier cause grandparents want to eat breakfast outside and I'm supposed to fetch them and I thought the earlier we go the earlier I get to come back and study. But ok, nevermind. Then after breakfast grandmother dragged my time asking me to wait awhile she get vegetables; I ended up waiting nearly an hour. By the time I got home it was nearly noon. But ok, nevermind. Planned to study wit April at Starbucks, waited for brother to get ready cause he said he wanted to go out also, nearly half-an-hour later he decided he's not going. But ok, nevermind. Studied at Starbucks, but then I realized it's almost impossible to study Public Speaking. Ok, nevermind. Around 4.30 I got a call from grandmother saying we left her vegetables in my car and she tells me there are fish and prawns inside. Rushed back home to freeze them and my car smells like rotten seafood now but ok, nevermind. Got home and found nothing to eat and still failed ordering pizza. But ok, nevermind, cause boyf called for a short while and also promised that he'll call again after he bath, which cheered me up. Turns out he forgot and went gaming while I was checking my phone every 10 minutes wondering why his bath took so long, but ok, nevermind, cause parents skyped me from China and I blabbed to them, but daddy laughed at me saying I talk too much sometimes. So ok, nevermind, cause I'm going upstairs to study again. So, nevermind.
I am not angry I am not mad, but I am not fine either. I'm annoyed. And have you ever felt so annoyed that you feel like crying but then crying makes my eyes puffy so nevermind, cause I bought ice cream and I'm gonna eat 'em!
I am not angry I am not mad, but I am not fine either. I'm annoyed. And have you ever felt so annoyed that you feel like crying but then crying makes my eyes puffy so nevermind, cause I bought ice cream and I'm gonna eat 'em!
So it's a really boring, long-winded ranting kind of post, but those of you who are still here reading this, thank you because you are here for me, however distantly. And thank you for knowing about my day.
