I just wrote this very long-winded post about cam-whoring plus all the pictures uploaded already but Morzilla crashed and I didn't save it so fock you Morzilla Firefox I am not gonna rewrite it anymore cuz I'm so so so pissed off I just thought that since it's a good hair day I might just cam-whore a bit then write something about it but then the Morzilla crash totally ruined my mood so now I'm gonna sulk and maybe eat some junk then go to bed. Kthxbai. X(

JY
Dammit.

The problem with humans is that they are never satisfied.

I got my report card back today, which is a pain, really, since mum is always in the yapping mood these days. I have improved by a total of 10 class placings and total placings each! At first I was like :...then when I compared my placings to other people I was like:My mother is not helping at all. I am down enough as it is when my grades are mentioned, but she just has to rub it in. And whoever heard of being scolded for studying?!?! Yea my dad did just that. Honestly, my parents behaviors over-rides all the biggest mysteries of the universe, and trying to decipher them is like trying to shit when you haven't eaten for 3 days. NOT-focking-POSSIBLE.

I am in a I-hate-my-parents mode now so pardon me for the language.
Kthxfockubye.

JY
Reality checks are the real killers.

As promised, a blog post about my until recently super messy and super untidy room! Sighs, sometimes I amaze even myself. ;)

Bookshelf with books in order by subject and genre.

Bedside table. Don't my speakers look chio or what? xD

(Yesh, up till nearly 12 updating)

I spy with my little eye. I spy my secret stash of nom noms under the bed. ;)
When I was young I had this weird nightmare that an intruder will invade our house and we will have to lock ourselves in our room like Jodie Foster and little Kirsten in Panic Room. So I always have nom noms and water in my room. Don't laugh. -.-

Bag compartment. And yesh those are the new flats. Haven't gotten around to tell mum yet so in the closet they stay.

Super tidy wardrobe. I haven't cleared out unwanted clothes for the Salvation Army though.

Cannot take the rest of my wardrobe. Got my inner beauty. *blushes*

Bling-ed my mirror! So yipudaa! Notice the little pink stars at the wooden borders. Took me an hour to stick them on. FML but super worth it. I check out myself my mirror everyday now. ;)

Reading corner+book of the moment. I don't have the really nicely shaped mini sofa or long-enough rugs, so I suppose this will do for now.

Lastly...

Careful. Don't mess up mah room or I bite.

*Growl. ;)

JY

eeiniwt.

THE most wasteful day ever! I was taking the ICAS English again this year, the initial plan being I take the test in PCGHS, wait till their school ends and have tua kim send me home. Manatau, she told me she have stuff to do at school, till around 2.30. So I waited. I seriously debated whether to take the bus home or not. In the end I waited at her library until 4.30pm. Pissed off pissed off very pissed off! But you know what the worst thing was? Everyone was giving me these indifferent looks! Like I actually hear whispers behind my back. 'Why is she in white?' and 'Ei, form 6 got new uniform is it?' and 'What school is she from?' The worst of it was: 'Ugh. Fringe!' WTFish?!?!?! (Hair check was one day before ICAS and I cut my own fringe) While I was waiting for the lift at home, I looked into the mirror and just suddenly realized how ugly my hair is. -.-

Can't wait to graduate have long hair! *Grumble grumble mimble wimble*

JY
Snacky snacky, come to mommy!

So now my blog is public. I did it yesterday. I'm hoping no one makes a big deal outta it, maybe people will just notice one by one. Whatever. I don't bad mouth people anymore anyway. And it's sad sometimes when you have an awesome post but no one sees it. So there.

JY
I'm freaking out.
Just a bit.

I said I'll update my blog on Friday. Said nia mah. I always slack off. Sighs.

I took the bus home from Anthony's just now. Wan Lyn's mum was supposed to drop me home, but they have to go somewhere. I couldn't insist on following what. So I walked to Komtar and took 307. Pretty much everyone on the bus was pissed off with me cuz I didn't have small change, and no one would help me. I wouldn't get off the bus to change my RM5 cuz I was afraid the bus wouldn't wait for me. I mean mum said she would be home by 11.30, what if I cannot get home in time? So I argued. In the end a nice uncle and auntie helped me. Aww, nice Samaritans. So anyway I didn't dare ask the driver to drop me off outside my place, so I ended up in Queens and had to walked back. And I was pissed off even more when I saw my brother sleeping cuz I didn't think to ask him to pick me up! I mean he can drive now what. So after this morning I was like Ugh! I must learn how to drive! Ezz, so hot and sweaty now.

So yesterday I finally bought razors. What?! Men razors are like so OMFG painful. I bought a LipIce Coloured balm too. (I didn't really need a balm, haven't finish my Faceshop one) But everyone is using LipIce! I see it EH-VER-REE-WHERE! It's only 10 bucks what, buy lor. But ouh me gawd so awesome! Highly recommend. =) BTW I bought the cream peach flavor. (Wait for it) I BOUGHT THOSE SHOES!!! So I've been lusting over these particularly comfortable pretty and awesome denim ballerinas from PDI for a very very very long time. ZQ nyahahaha I bought it. Finally. All the world smiles for me. =D (Yes, yes. I am a ballerina-flats-cute shoes kinda girl.)

So hopefully no one dog-ears my books. I've been borrowing books to a lot of people. So peoples! I am a amid book reader and I treat my books like my babies. Please don't:
^Dog-ear mah book(use a frigging bookmark)
^Bend the spine(OK I know this is a very weird fetish, I picked it up from my bro)
^Drip wet stuff on the pages(I read read read suddenly I see a curry drop wtf? Not on.)
^Very kind go and wrap my books for me(Don't gimme the look this has happened before, I have a way of wrapping books: MY way.)

In other words my books have better be in the same condition as it is when I hand it over to you. Otherwise, *ahem in my best Arnold Schwarzenegger voice* You. Shall. Pay.

JY
Oh ma ballerinas!

I'm gonna have a lot of free time coming up, as in the next 2 or 3 days. (In case you're wondering, I got 2 days of MC)But I don't think I'ma update that much. I'm really really sick. I feel light headed, dizzy, and I feel like I'ma faint. If I stand long enough I see black. I mean I can still feel and I know that I'm conscious, but it feels like I'm gonna faint soon. The doctor was trying to talk me into an injection. Fat Chance. Gonna re-read The Time Traveller's Wife in meantime. Mum's not gonna be happy. She thinks if I'm healthy enough to read novels I should be studying. But, but, but... Studying makes me even more sick! No fair! I'm feeling like I'm over-using my brain even to type such a short post, so Ciao! everyone, I'ma take my meds(5 pills and 10ml of coughing syrup a day, can you believe that?!) and head to bed. Again. Wey! Don't gimme that look. I slept at 2++ am yesterday okay?! (I couldn't sleep, was too hot. O wait, of cuz I am.)

Try not to miss me. Be patient.

Black stockings are like, so HAWT.

JY
No injections if I can help it.

I don't generally like green very much. I always think green is very... ugh... green. Disgusting. But this shade is exceptionally nice wor. I mean I don't really mind it, being green. But omegosh! The header picture is so me, secretly. I've always think of me as sweet but sexy-wannabe. X/ Personality!

OK, so I'm sick again. Feverish, sorethroat, coughing like a dog, headaches and sniffing. Is sleepy considered an illness? XD I slept for more than 3 hours straight just now, and I'm feeling better already. But I gotta tell ya, when I'm sleepy I have a very short temper. I hate it when people wake me up when I don't feel like waking yet. I hate it when people leave my door open. I hate people shouting outside when they know clearly that I need rest. Seriously, mum keeps opening my door, for whatever focking reasons. I am sick! I. NEED. TO. SLEEP. *Sighs exasperatedly*

Dot dot. Am so tired these days. O wait. Exhausted is a better word. Been going to the library a lot. Then when I come back I have piles of homework waiting. Not to mention I haven't fully recover from the concert. Sighs again. I'm feeling very unappreciated at the moment. Stressed out and exhaustion. Not to mention being sick and lacking sleep. I've been losing weight lah. I mean I dunno about my appearance, but the numbers on the bathroom scale are freaking me out. People would assume girls would be happy in this situation. *Clears throat* Lemme clarify. (most)Girls would be happy if they're thin, not if they're weighing less than they should. It's like freaking me out.

Ok I'm calling it a day. Headed to bed. Again. Nights all.

JY
This should still be pink.

Wrote this (what do you call this? A verse?) in class, within 5 minutes. It's like a sudden inspiration. No edit, no looking at it for an hour thinking how to perfect it. This is the first draft. But I'm really ashamed of my lit/verse drafts, so I'm posting them here:

I am all grown up
Please respect my choices
And I will respect yours

I can think maturely now
Please let me make decisions
And you'll find I make them well

I am a big girl now
Please let me make my own arrangements
You'll realize I am able to solve problems

I appreciate your care and concern
Please let go of me now
And you'll see I can take care of myself

I know you love me, oh so much
but
Please dont suffocate me with it
Or I will shrink further away

JY
Mother.

OK this post will be in like point point point form.

Point. Sorry bloggie I didn't see you in a week. Misshhed you!
Point. I skipped trip to library cuz I'm preparing for concert.
Point. This years concert preparation is so weird. And I really miss Ms. Lee. No offence but Pn Anne doesnt have what it takes. A lot of pronunciation mistakes.
Point. So nervous! Sore throat + no voice.
Point. Twin is flirting madder than ever. TRash or no TRash?
Point. Chris commented on my post. I refreshed 3 times just to make sure.
Point. Daddy's birthday is today. I feel so guilty cuz I'm spending so little time with him on his special day.
Point. I bought The Body Shop's Body, Room and Linen Spritz. So goddamn awesome! Even my brother likes it.
Point. I'ma make it a point(o hey a point)to change my template. Make it more interesting. Maybe Twitter too.
Point. Going to Dewan Sri tomorrow. Hopefully it'll take a much shorter time than last year.
Point. Daddy increased my pocket money. I didn't even ask. So I have RM200 a month now.
Point. I haven't practiced my scripts so why the heck am I still here. &^%f**!?!?@...

JY