I stare into the mirror,
That girl stared back at I.
I know,
I cannot hate; I cannot lie.
I cannot fear; I cannot cry.
And yet,
a single tear,
Fell down from her eye.

I wanna cry.
Please, just let me.

I've given you chances, lots of chances.
Please, please just stop making my life miserable.
If I've said it once, I've said it twice.
(I've said it four times, actually)
I'm not your girlfriend, and I don't wanna be.
What's wrong with me being around boys?!
I'm not even doing anything I shouldn't.
I'm making friends, that's what I'm doing.
You wanna control who I bond with, too?
I don't have to, I don't want to give you reports of what I'm doing.
I don't have to tell you when I'm eating,
when I'm doing my homework,
When I'm shitting.
I'm happy with my life as it is.
Stop suiting yourself in my life so comfortably.
You think you know me; well you don't.
STOP.
Please, just stop.

I watched 'Bend it like Beckham' with my bro just now.
I really like the movie, but there's just something.
You know, when I normally watch chic-flicks
I'll always be waiting for the parts where the male lead appears.
But there was something weird about this particular male lead.
Towards the end I realized the guy looked so much like Chris.
Check it out.It freaked me out like hell.
And the creepy thing is... ...
Jonathan Rhys Meyers' character is a ... ...
... ...[wait for it]... ...
A girls team coach.
I know, right?
To top it up, our(me and Chris) relationship* is kinda awkward right now.

*relationship not as in girlfriend-boyfriend relationship. It's just kinda more than friends but not really there yet. So it's awkward.

I am currently feeling freaked out and disturbed.

It's my dear bro's PROM night yesterday.
I know, hurry up and SCREAM!!!
Sighs, I know there won't be any picts to display, knowing him.
But, still, it's prom.
I'm gonna ask if he got laid.
>.-

TC was fun, in overall.
I liked the last day, hand ball match with juniors.
But WTF?!
Play fair kay.
It's a friendly match.
We've tolerate enough.
Just you wait.
*pinky*

Owh, one good thing happen, at the very least.
I'm 'promoted' to fully senior.
Finally got my batch and nametag today at the closing ceremony of TC.
=))
I AM actually happy, but I'm not sure I really should be.

...

Went to the beach with my darliesss.

Ish, I wasted money on taxi.
Originally, the fare to B.Ferringhi was RM28.
I argued so we can go for RM25.
But then on the taxi we decided to get down at paradise hotel.
That, wasn't B.Ferringhi.
CS says just give him RM15.
But stupid me gave him 20.
Aiks.
I realized we can go out spending less money if we went to the beach.
The whole journey was less than RM20/person.
Cheap, I know.
I'm dead beat.
Nights all.

What the FUCK.
(Notice I'm actually using the real word. Which means I'm seriously pissed off.)
I'm supposed to be in Dewan Sri now.
Watching a world-Class drama.
By korean breakdancers.
Eadid said he could get half-prized tickets.
But somehow, dear old mum fucked the whole thing up.
Don't remind me.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....
Exams are over!!!
I mean actually over.
YAY!!!!
Still...
Starting this year I didnt really like fridays.
Especially the fridays when exams end.
All my friends will be hanging out in malls and whatever
But mua still have to go for marching until 4pm.
AND AND AND!!!
Today is the worst.
Coz JiaWei wants a called for a meeting until 5pm.
*swear words here.*
F lah him.
He still acts like he's so hebat.
Acting like he's doing all his jobs well.
Acting like all of us have wronged him.
F.
By the time I'm home it's already 5.30pm
And I have to leave for tuition at 7pm.
WTFWTFWTFWTF

Fridays are so... ... ... tiring.
*sighs*

Had a Mother's Day celebration on May the 10th. Sorry for the late update. Let da pictures talk.

Group Pic #1

Group Pic #2

Group Pic #3

And just so you guys don't forget how pretty I am...

PS: Love the bracelet.

XOXO

What an effing day.

It was effing good and also effing bad.
I'll explain.

Why today is a effing good day:

• It wasn't hot today. -I've been sweating a lot recently. Of course, it may be due to me listening to too many jokes. I've been waking up in sweat for 2 days running. Too damn hot. I gotta do something against global warming 1 day. (The air-cond is on while I'm typing this.)
• A lot of people is making an effort to make me laugh. -Hmm. Maybe I'm looking too emo. I was teased, but in a good way. People are so cute.
• I'm too damn 'yeng' today. -It's civics exam today. (Don't ask me why. I don't even know why we fecking take the subject.) Anyways, it was a 1 hour exam. I finished in 15 mins, slept for 45 mins, woke up, and passed up my paper. I'm too damn yeng. (PS: RY, yeng-ness doesn't show in pictures. It shows in actions. XP)
• Planned a trip with CS. -We're planning to go to the beach, then eat, and then take a stroll down Upper Penang Road. And the best part is that RY said maybe she can make it.
• Had an enjoyable conversation with Saggy. -=) You guys don't need to know. Bottom line: I hate people who is good in Physics and Chemistry.

Why today is a effing bad day.

• The condo upstairs is renovating. -It's so damn noisy! I can't sleep, I can't watch TV, I can't talk, I can't hear people talking, and I can't even read in peace. Yes, thank goodness I have my iPod. But I can only listen to rock, heavy metal, noisy music. I don't fancy Bach with background bass. I'm feeling so frustrated, all the time.
  
• I can't sleep!! Again!! -I'm used to having a nap now. But my sleep timetable has turned upside-down due to exams. Now, I get very sleepy in the mornings, at around 8-9am. Very, very tired in the afternoons. Drifting around in the evenings. And at night, my eyes get very tired but I just can't fall asleep! The best sleeping time is at 8-10am in school. Hopefully there's an easy subject going on so I can doze off quickly. XP
• He didn't message me today. -Nothing to say here.

Newest update! (At presisely 7.53pm)
As I said, exams are officially over for me.
So i watched a bit of Chick VS. Dick.
It was an old episode.
'The Impersonating Challenge'
Micheal Jackson.
Chun Li from Street Fighter.
Borat.
etc. ect. etc.

Then, when I was at a part where Kay Kay was asked to
impersonate the long haired ghost that scares people by
climbing out of televisions, I was like:

*SCREAMS!!!*

And I closed the whole goddamn window.
Sighs.
I know, I know, I'm so softcore right.

Ask me what time I slept yesterday.
2am
Now ask me what time I woke up today.
5am
Ask me how many cups of coffe I had yesterday night.
3
Now ask me how many I had this morning.
2

That's what I've been asking everyone I see today.
Hey! Don't blame me!
I'm so cracked up on caffaine.
Aaaaand.....
Ding! Ding! Ding!
CS got all da answers correct!!!
(*applause)

I so don't care waht other people say.
Exams are officially over for me.
(Smile here.)
(BIG smile here.)

I'm starting all over again.
Why do I always fall into your heart?

Remember the post in which I said: I effing hate exams.
Remember that?
Yea, well, I'ma post another similar one.





I EFFING HATE BIO!!!!!

I just effing cut him outta my life.
And i'm not feeling guilty.
XP


Seriously, you don't deserve me.
Feck out of my life and never come back.
You're not even brave enough.
Fecking coward.
Am effing pissed off about you.

Nah, little pinky*
Pinky is da new middle.
Hah.

I EFFING HATE EXAMS.
(Exams are here. Sobs*)