I just realized.

It's Octobies month!
(my invention: October+babies=Octobies)

Anyways, my eyes hurts for no reason. And I didn't get to go out today. I didn't get to watch 'Devil', I didn't get to sleep, the BM seminar was a bore, I 'lost' daddy's company's phone receipt, I woke up at 6am (6am!) because of my freaking biological alarm. All in all, not a very good day.

BUT I did watched 'When Harry Met Sally...' I was smiling stupidly, like a dopey, at the end of the movie. I can't believe Star's Movies column classified it as a break-up movie. It's like a not-so-typical but the sweetest romance ever! And the sex talk was actually funny, not the awkward type where you're afraid your parents will burst into your room halfway. The legendary 'fake orgasm' scene was actually just OK, but maybe it was because I already heard about it and I had a certain level of anticipation, so. But 'I'll have what she's having' is still ROFL. ;D

And Billy Crystal in the movie looks...eh...just like that, but in the end you sorta think him an Orlando Bloom too. I can't believe how young Meg Ryan looks in the movie! But then again it's been 22 years. (movie came out in 1989) But still, she's like super gorgeous in the movie. Her eyes; and that face shape that made me look down in shame. :(

OK my eyes really hurt now.

p/s: I'm meeting Jiayi for that muhibah dinner at our place later. Shit it'll be bloody awkward. I dont know him that well. Oh well, I will tonight.

JY
harry harry harry harry
awwwww. *melts

Wheee! The 200th blogpost. Dedicated to ME. I feel so grown up now. I actually think I am somewhat - Ahem! - awesome. Ish, perasan. :D *smooches myself* (was gonna type xoxo, but. you know before Gossip Girl xoxo was my thing! MINE! but everyone uses it now so i don't wanna use it) (btw my lips can't reach my cheeks 0.o)

*long post ahead. skip if in a hurry*

So trials was a complete fiasco. I don't only mean my lack of studying, but also, the PKPSM paper is the shittiest, most meaningless, unorganized bullshit paper I've ever taken. There were so many mistakes in the papers, not your typical typo, or printing errors. You get mistakes in the value you need to calculate/get the answers from. Like x=-9 became x=-8. Or the initial cathode ray oscilloscope diagram that we're suppose to modify. Like WTF?! We were cracking our brains and wasting precious exam time(no additional time) then the teacher comes butting in correcting the questions not once but 2, 3 times! WTFFFFFFF! The questions were completely irrelevent. You get questions like 'Suggest how people can be encouraged to practice the 4R's?' in BIOLOGY. Isn't that suppose to come out in Moral? Even when you do get relevant questions, it's something like: 'Mr Sukorli,42,has cardiovascular disease. He smokes 20 cigarettes a day, taking fast food meal, and lacking of exercise.(yes i know grammer error its exact phrase from paper) Why does he have cardiovascular disease?' WhyTF are you asking me?! Because he smokes 20 cigarettes a day, taking fast food meal, and lacking of exercise lah! AND it's a 10 marks question loh.

OR. Like in add maths. Checking and checking and rechecking oh shit dao why can't I get the correct value formula wrong or sub wrong or add wrong or concept wrong ei why is the teacher here HAR?! wrong value ah mother loving piece of crap lah you I just spent 15 minutes on this question! That in a super pekchek and sleepy situation cuz I slept 3 hours only day before add maths. Niao dao. -.- It goes to a point where I actually regret staying up late to memorize all the little facts and main points simply because the paper is too shitty to be a paper.

(Feeling a bit panicky/nervous typing up till this point cuz they start distributing papers tomorrow. K I'll just drop the subj here.)

So. I - *Drum rolls* - am a shopping addict. I'm not a buying addict, but I'm a shopping addict. There's a difference. I can't walk down the mall not glancing around for sugar, spice, and everything nice pretty much everything that look nice. Especially when there's a sale. But the thing is I'm so so so proud of myself cuz I'm ALWAYS in budget! *jumps up and down excitedly* I don't buy unless... I buy. (ok thats bull) Heh just a random fact.

And. Ahem. You. Guys. Are. Pissing. Me. Off. If you have time to say : 'OMG,我来不及读完了！' then 你就不是读不完了啦。If 你真的读不完，then你就不会鸟到在那边浪费时间讲你读不完了啦。OMG chinese-english rojak inner me speaks. xD But seriously. Shut your trap. I always have headaches if I don't sleep at night and your 'awesome' voice doesn't help one bit.

And because this is my 200th post, because I officially finish trials today, because I just had an exceptionally nice day out, lets have a different finale.

FROM
THE SOMEWHAT TOO-AWESOME-TO-BE-TRUE
JAY WHY

xD

" Biology. Damn. "

47 and still going strong. ILY mummy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


Aaaaaaaand.
No updates. Those mother-loving trials kills.

JY
Miss you much.

I skipped school today. My study momentum is going down. I'm gonna pick myself up again by insisting on going to the library every Thursday to Sunday. I have diarrhea and I puked out air in the afternoon. I didn't cut my hair and isn't planning to. I haven't done homework in nearly 2 weeks. I just solved an EXTREMELY difficult log question and I am goddamn proud of myself. I think I'll have a hard time waking up tomorrow cuz I've been having a bit of teeny weeny trouble sleeping. I desperately need new study music but bro's iTunes crashed so I can't transfer. I'm updating my blog like this because: 1) Mum is pissed I'm using the computer so I have to hurry. 2) It's only 11pm but I'ma force myself asleep. 3) I really, really shouldn't be here.

JY
Rush rush rush!

Remember 11th of September.

Remember it like you remember 117, like you remember 10th of June. Remember 26th of December. Remember 15th of February. Remember all that you love and hate. Remember everyone that has ever lived and died. And remember yourself.




Oh and remember 28th of October every year too. ;)

JY

Har? What?
Update ar?





Here.
An update.

JY
Blank.

你會不會忽然的出現　在街角的咖啡店

　我會帶著笑臉　揮手寒喧　和你　坐著聊聊天
　我多麼想和你見一面　看看你最近改變
　不再去說從前　只是寒喧　對你說一句
　只是說一句　好久不見

Shit shit shit. I have shit loads of imagination. OMG I can't do this. What am I doing? What am I thinking?! I need to forget everything unimportant and concentrate on trials. (Yes it means something to me)

Or. Or you can come back and end my everything. I dunno in what way, but I miss you.

JY
I sound like Rose.

Ho. Ho. Physics is frogging killing me.

JY
*GASP*
SPM's!

Once in an apple pie, dad gets mad at work and we all get cast in the storm.
I had a lot to spill but now I'm just plain tired. I'm tired of all the bickering, tired of having to pick up the mess all the time, tired of hating, tired of trying, tired of being tired. I don't wanna feeling anything anymore. It ends here. *Fullstop.*

I don't get humans. I don't get people. I'm not a meanie. I status-ed that I didn't bother to tell these 2 guys that the library didn't open on Mondays and Tuesdays and people just have to shoot. People, mind, who are meaner than me, evil-er than me, more bully-ish than me. How does that fit in?! I don't even know those guys and I just happened to overheard what they were saying. I have never look them in the eye before, let alone talked. How can it not be awkward if I poke them in the back and start kaypo-ing? Yes. I know I am like Terry's mother in I Not Stupid, but come on, she has a point.

Dash dash. FYI I did not feel good last Friday. Ask me why.
'Why?'
Because you frogging ask me to do your English homework for you. Plain rudely. The homework reached my place before I even said yes. And I cannot reject you because I'm a nice person and you are very good at taking things for granted. AND you did not ask nicely. Yes ONE person asking me to do their homework for them can already piss me off. Let alone THREE.

Lemme explain. I copy homework too. But only for Sejarah where the situation is like your answer will be more or less the same whether you do it yourself or not. But for essay projects, please do your own frogging homework. And some more it's not like those homework where you just pass it up the very next day. You know the teacher is gonna discuss it in class, you know she'll notice if 2 people present the same work. PLUS. You want me to do your homework for you but you don't tell me beforehand. You gimme your uncompleted homework when the teacher has already stride into the class. NOT on. Or or or, you pass me the piece of homework you want me to do 2 minutes before it's your turn to present and you expect me to finish it for you in 2 minutes. How is that on?!

On a happier note. I won Scrabble. Twice. Against my brother. Who happens to be a school representative for Scrabble. Do I rawk or what. =)

PS: Perhaps people have noticed that I'm not updating as much as I should, as much as I can, and as much as I promised. I am sort of anticipating something and I pretty much don't feel anything anymore, temporarily. Until it comes my feelings go with it. Oh well, there must be something with him. And I don't even have a picture.

Dedicated to Em.i.l.y.
I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry about anything bad that's happened but it's not the end of the world. Think of all the people who loves you and would love you more than that hiao gang ever would. I love you to pieces. Tell me if you need anything. I can cross dress you know. And I'm sorry about Saturday.

JY
Everything revolves around you again.

I have been boiling inside for the whole morning. There have been angry tears but I hide them. I drown myself in self-wallow while playing 'Chasing Cars' inside my head. Thanks to mommy.

Not everything is my frogging fault. Stop throwing your menopausal tantrums at me all the time. I don't answer back not because I think you are right; I don't answer back because I know it will come out in a scream; I don't answer back because I want to avoid rows; I don't answer back because I know that even if I am right, I will end up the guilty one, and that I will end up apologizing.

I am BOILING. I shall not talk to her this whole day.

PS: I pointed my middle finger at someone's face for the first time in 1+years. He is make me beli. beli. beli. pissed off. I'm sorry JY's conscience, but he deserved it.

JY
Ribbit ribbit ribbit.

This time round I actually have things to update about but everyone else has been hogging the line so I didn't get my chance to blog. Be patient. I'll hog the line back. ;)

I'm feeling a bit dry. Everywhere.

JY
Sun tanning didn't work as well.
But it feels great.

I have never really thought about it. My Mondays are actually really really hectic, even compared to other people's. My day starts at 5.55am with the alarm blaring until at least 10.30pm, not counting studying(which I normally last till 12+). Between school and my two tuitions (5.00-10.00pm), I have a 2 hours at home when I usually sleep away with. So my first two periods on Tuesdays are normally compelled with copying the previous day's homework, if there is any. I can't believe I noticed this when there are only at most 11 Mondays this hectic left. FML.

JY
fmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfml

(This is a hatred-filled post full of ramblings on hatred, hatred and hatred. Don’t read if you are in a good mood)

I don’t like attitudes. Don’t show it to me. I like personality, but showing THE attitude is a whole different story.

FYI: Attitude ≠ Personality.

I don’t care how close you are to me – in fact the closer you are to me the more you should know not to show me THE attitude. Being emo once in a while is totally OK. Even men have pre-menstrual syndrome sometimes, I totally get it. But me being uber nice to you, is not something for you to take for granted. I mean which type of pathetic loser asks for sympathy?! Who the hell you think you are? If you’re down I can back you up, cheer you up, console you, hug you, listen to all your ramblings. But when you tell me zero stuff, don’t expect me to know what to say lah! I can lay off a bit, but don’t go cold on me when I dunno what to do to get you up again! Sometimes people say there’s nothing wrong, but even Captain Utter-most Unobvious can see you’re being emo. And when I ask you say I am not being emo I am fine There is nothing wrong No keep on talking I am OK, so when I decide not to be so sensitive and just go on like usual, you show me THE attitude! I mean, WHAT?! So not on! And everyone is doing it! Even my mum(ho.ho.surprize ). Stupid stupid stupid stupid peoples. I hate the world I hate everyone in it I hate everything that has got to do with it!

What is it with people these days?!

*grumble grumble grumble…

JY

Stupid!

I have been updating less frequently cuz my mum is back in the my-daughter-has-web-addict-mania. Also, I have way too little time to spare. Not counting school and sleep, I spend the rest of my time studying, eating, phone-dating, eating, studying, eating, occasionally checking updates on comp, eating, eating, eating, eating... Sighs, I think I'm supposed to feel guilty eating so much, but I still put off visits to the gym! Urrrg. Must. Refrain. From. Eating. Gai nia me. It's like I cannot stop my food intake. They all taste so nice!

If only I can tell myself to stop thinking all the time. Don't get me wrong. I am perfectly fine and un-emo now, but I dunno for how long my awesome super high mood will last. It's like now I'm not thinking that much I am actually having fun doing everything. I don't care anymore that we're so not super close. I don't care that I don't have a love live I can boast in public. I don't care that my grades barely scrape my parents expectations(ok i do care a little bit but not cuz of my parents). Damn all of them. I don't care that my tummy is getting more noticeable by the day. Ok fine I do care a little bit. Fine, a bit more than a little bit.

The thing is, when you don't think more than you're suppose to think, life gets all better. Or maybe I've just been talking with Kuga too much. ;)

JY
Taa my munchies.
Err, I meant my babies.