oh hai ebeli wan dis is chiu jeok ying here and i has gone maaaad cuz i has only slept like 5 or 6 hours de laz 48 hours and i has becam laik dis and i is not liking itbai nao i am going to slip zzz

JY

i tried
i just can't
i cried
i give up

JY

Can't freaking stand it no more. Must tell someone. Rant post rant post rant post.

I just saw someone retweeting this:Serioualy, I can't stand it. This kind of person - he checks how many followers he's gain since 5 minutes ago, then checks it 10 minutes later - retweeting this. I bet my buttocks that he only knows 5% of the people he follows. Sheeeeeesh... I like my ass, please don't make it drop off from excessive laughing. tqvmuch.

Kay must continue my process of daiiiiiiying. Yarggghhh!!!

JY
27 days to go.

My father is the most inappropriate, toady, hypocrite person I have ever the misfortune to meet, let alone have a blood tie with.

He blames people for never explaining anything to him, but he doesn't give people a chance to do so. He likes to joke, but most all the time no one can tell whether it's a joke or whether he's really pissed. He talks to everyone in the way a General talks to his army, bloody freaking loudly. He teases people a lot, but most of the time offending the person in question. He treats his children like investments. He pays for food and living expenses and stuff and expects profits multiply several hundred times. My father thinks he is the most successful person on the planet and cannot wait to share his shitload philosophy with everyone he meets. Everyone is suppose to look up to him and ask him for advise on every-freaking-thing, and whoever appears more successful than him either has an attitude problem or is an arse or has cancer and is worth him pitiying.

A conversation would be going well, everyone have fun and laughing. As soon as he walks in a joins in, I leave my chair. I don't want to risk earwax overloading.

JY

My heart gives an extra pound whenever I see your first name, which incidentally is a quite well-used name. At this rate my heart is probably gonna overbeat by the time I'm 30. It's worth it if it's for you, but you're not ever there. You're like smoke, when the wind blows you disappear. However I strive to keep you with me, you slip through my fingers everytime. imy

Oh God, I'm DAIIIIIYING here! There are approximately 13 days left till SPM starts, and I'm here updating my blog! (Not that I'm in any position to complain, I'm the one to stick my lazy ass here.) T_T

Seriously, I am this close to giving up already. It's like I don't know where to start revising, I don't know which exercise to start doing. I'm lost in the middle not knowing where to go. Argh, the frustration! *pulls out hair* OK, excuse me for now, I'm gonna go drown myself in self-pity while playing 'The Middle' on full blast.

It just takes some time

Little girl you're in the middle of the ride

Everything, everything will be just fine

Everything, everything will be alright, alright

JY

Oh the guilt!

A relative of my dad's visited Penang, so my dad took us all out for breakfast just now. It was the usual chat/small talk in the car. As any other 17 year old, as soon as the other party got to know that you're in your last year of high school, they drill you with what you want to do with your future, interrogate you on where you wanna further your study. On times like these, I normally just shrug away the question and never joining in the conversation again. But on the car I could see that there was no way out, so I told the truth: 'I'm thinking of Psychology'.

It just suddenly occurred to me that I never talked to my father to what I might wanna do in my tertiary studies; I never dropped a single hint, knowing that if I did I would never get the end of it. It's just a little mean, for him to find out what his daughter want to study through a conversation that did not include him.

JY

*Quickly makes a vow to myself: If I don't finish updating today, I won't go out.

OK, now that's out of the way... ...Ommo! Birthday and graduation! Ahhhhh! Have been crying so so so much for this past week, my eyes have turned into fishballs. This is like the touchy-est week ever! For once I actually don't mind thaaaat much that my hair is like freaking ugggg-lee. My friends are the best. *sighs and melts* Pictures galore.

New hot spot for pole dancers: The McD pole

Group picha of the day. *cries*

Of cuz my family didn't forget. This year's celebration was, by far, the best ever, maybe it's cuz I'm already so stoned with the happiness of graduation, friend's surprises etc. My cousin sis was the life and joyof the celebration. No seriously, she's so uber cute that she gets away doing anything! Whatever she does, eat, sleep, talk nonsense, even cry makes people laugh. You've got to really see her to get it, but she vomited just now, and me and my brother laughed our buttocks off. I think we have problems. =/

(Eh for some annoying reason I can't upload more pichas, so next time)

Kays, iPad review time. Honestly I haven't tried most of the games, I've just been using it to surf the internet. It's not bad, the tab thing is annoying cuz the old tab will stop loading if u go to the next tab. And the auto-spellchecker thing is freaking annoying; I can't disable it for some reason. And you can't 'mouse'/ point at the exact place you wanna edit, like in the middle of a sentence. The iPad detects heat+pressure, not touch, and I have broad fingers. The copy thing is annoying too. Press too long and it shades the section asking whether u wanna copy it. Keypad: Ehh, not cool at all. They didn't put the apostrophe in the same board as ABC's. =/

On the plus side. Apps are seriously cool. The zoom-in/zoom-out thing looks un-believably cool. The sliding feature are flawless, it slides uber smoothly man. I like the mail feature, it's very convenient. And It's very good for hao lian purposes. But that's just it.

kgtgbath. man rainy nights are awesome.

JY
I love a rainy night

I did soooo good for my trials! And soooo bad as well! Why am I using the exclamation mark! OK cut da crap!

But really, I got highest for English and lowest for maths. I did (i think) super good for BC paper 1 but (i think) super bad for paper 2. So till now I still cannot determine whether I did good for my trials or not. BUT. I only got 3A's so far, not good if I'm gonna use forecast results to apply for scholarships. =(

Damn I just started typing this blog and mummy comes home. Kgtgbai.

JY

I just realized.

It's Octobies month!
(my invention: October+babies=Octobies)

Anyways, my eyes hurts for no reason. And I didn't get to go out today. I didn't get to watch 'Devil', I didn't get to sleep, the BM seminar was a bore, I 'lost' daddy's company's phone receipt, I woke up at 6am (6am!) because of my freaking biological alarm. All in all, not a very good day.

BUT I did watched 'When Harry Met Sally...' I was smiling stupidly, like a dopey, at the end of the movie. I can't believe Star's Movies column classified it as a break-up movie. It's like a not-so-typical but the sweetest romance ever! And the sex talk was actually funny, not the awkward type where you're afraid your parents will burst into your room halfway. The legendary 'fake orgasm' scene was actually just OK, but maybe it was because I already heard about it and I had a certain level of anticipation, so. But 'I'll have what she's having' is still ROFL. ;D

And Billy Crystal in the movie looks...eh...just like that, but in the end you sorta think him an Orlando Bloom too. I can't believe how young Meg Ryan looks in the movie! But then again it's been 22 years. (movie came out in 1989) But still, she's like super gorgeous in the movie. Her eyes; and that face shape that made me look down in shame. :(

OK my eyes really hurt now.

p/s: I'm meeting Jiayi for that muhibah dinner at our place later. Shit it'll be bloody awkward. I dont know him that well. Oh well, I will tonight.

JY
harry harry harry harry
awwwww. *melts

Wheee! The 200th blogpost. Dedicated to ME. I feel so grown up now. I actually think I am somewhat - Ahem! - awesome. Ish, perasan. :D *smooches myself* (was gonna type xoxo, but. you know before Gossip Girl xoxo was my thing! MINE! but everyone uses it now so i don't wanna use it) (btw my lips can't reach my cheeks 0.o)

*long post ahead. skip if in a hurry*

So trials was a complete fiasco. I don't only mean my lack of studying, but also, the PKPSM paper is the shittiest, most meaningless, unorganized bullshit paper I've ever taken. There were so many mistakes in the papers, not your typical typo, or printing errors. You get mistakes in the value you need to calculate/get the answers from. Like x=-9 became x=-8. Or the initial cathode ray oscilloscope diagram that we're suppose to modify. Like WTF?! We were cracking our brains and wasting precious exam time(no additional time) then the teacher comes butting in correcting the questions not once but 2, 3 times! WTFFFFFFF! The questions were completely irrelevent. You get questions like 'Suggest how people can be encouraged to practice the 4R's?' in BIOLOGY. Isn't that suppose to come out in Moral? Even when you do get relevant questions, it's something like: 'Mr Sukorli,42,has cardiovascular disease. He smokes 20 cigarettes a day, taking fast food meal, and lacking of exercise.(yes i know grammer error its exact phrase from paper) Why does he have cardiovascular disease?' WhyTF are you asking me?! Because he smokes 20 cigarettes a day, taking fast food meal, and lacking of exercise lah! AND it's a 10 marks question loh.

OR. Like in add maths. Checking and checking and rechecking oh shit dao why can't I get the correct value formula wrong or sub wrong or add wrong or concept wrong ei why is the teacher here HAR?! wrong value ah mother loving piece of crap lah you I just spent 15 minutes on this question! That in a super pekchek and sleepy situation cuz I slept 3 hours only day before add maths. Niao dao. -.- It goes to a point where I actually regret staying up late to memorize all the little facts and main points simply because the paper is too shitty to be a paper.

(Feeling a bit panicky/nervous typing up till this point cuz they start distributing papers tomorrow. K I'll just drop the subj here.)

So. I - *Drum rolls* - am a shopping addict. I'm not a buying addict, but I'm a shopping addict. There's a difference. I can't walk down the mall not glancing around for sugar, spice, and everything nice pretty much everything that look nice. Especially when there's a sale. But the thing is I'm so so so proud of myself cuz I'm ALWAYS in budget! *jumps up and down excitedly* I don't buy unless... I buy. (ok thats bull) Heh just a random fact.

And. Ahem. You. Guys. Are. Pissing. Me. Off. If you have time to say : 'OMG,我来不及读完了！' then 你就不是读不完了啦。If 你真的读不完，then你就不会鸟到在那边浪费时间讲你读不完了啦。OMG chinese-english rojak inner me speaks. xD But seriously. Shut your trap. I always have headaches if I don't sleep at night and your 'awesome' voice doesn't help one bit.

And because this is my 200th post, because I officially finish trials today, because I just had an exceptionally nice day out, lets have a different finale.

FROM
THE SOMEWHAT TOO-AWESOME-TO-BE-TRUE
JAY WHY

xD

" Biology. Damn. "

47 and still going strong. ILY mummy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


Aaaaaaaand.
No updates. Those mother-loving trials kills.

JY
Miss you much.

I skipped school today. My study momentum is going down. I'm gonna pick myself up again by insisting on going to the library every Thursday to Sunday. I have diarrhea and I puked out air in the afternoon. I didn't cut my hair and isn't planning to. I haven't done homework in nearly 2 weeks. I just solved an EXTREMELY difficult log question and I am goddamn proud of myself. I think I'll have a hard time waking up tomorrow cuz I've been having a bit of teeny weeny trouble sleeping. I desperately need new study music but bro's iTunes crashed so I can't transfer. I'm updating my blog like this because: 1) Mum is pissed I'm using the computer so I have to hurry. 2) It's only 11pm but I'ma force myself asleep. 3) I really, really shouldn't be here.

JY
Rush rush rush!

Remember 11th of September.

Remember it like you remember 117, like you remember 10th of June. Remember 26th of December. Remember 15th of February. Remember all that you love and hate. Remember everyone that has ever lived and died. And remember yourself.




Oh and remember 28th of October every year too. ;)

JY

Har? What?
Update ar?





Here.
An update.

JY
Blank.